I have a love/hate relationship with planning ahead
Meal prep is the thing that people are doing now I guess. I hate it. and I love it. And I've been doing it before it was cool.  I don't have the fancy glass containers or the bento boxes. Just plain old take out containers that I've had for years. Granted, I've upped my game a bit. I make a more conscious decision and plan more than  "I'll take left overs for lunch"  but if I had my druthers, I'd only cook when I wanted to, not because I had to. I love cooking... I hate having to cook. Does that make sense?  When it's time for us to sit down and plan our meals for the week, I cringe.  I have this internal fight of "don't want to can't make me" and it's ridiculous because we are going to have to eat and I don't want to stop at the store every night. I don't get it.  It makes no sense. Today, I fought the ridiculous crowds at the grocery store (I forgot Rosh Hashanah starts today and it was CRAZY busy) and when I came home, I got right to cooking so what the hell is my problem, actually? I made the Orzo and Salmon thing I was bringing for lunch every day, I shoved a half a chicken in the InstantPot to cook and made the curry sauce that the chicken will be reheated in with some green beans. I make LB's breakfast and lunch for tomorrow (the bananas weren't quite ripe or I would have made three days worth of her breakfast) and then I made cookies and I blame Netflix for airing the most recent season of Great British Bake Off for that part. Honestly, if I would stop procrastinating and just get groceries after work on Friday, I could avoid a lot of this nonsense.  Part of my issue is that I just want to sit on my ass and do nothing on Saturday and Sunday which is ridiculous because my day job involves me sitting on my ass all day. By the way, my desk job is exhausting and no one really knows why. In other news, I'm mostly through the Harry Potter series again because it's amazing, I've started reading Rainbow Body: A History of the Western Chakra System from Blavatsky to Brennan and wow is that blowing my mind... and I have started weeding through the extra crap I have at home that I don't need but haven't thrown out because LANDFILL but then realize that it's a psychic energy hog having all this stuff cluttering up my chi so, I'm actively finding homes for a lot of things.  I have a love/hate relationship with getting rid of things too Oh, and I'm taking September away from social media. If you found this post in your feed or on mine, it's because it went automatically.  Being away from Social Media has already given me a lot more perspective on where my mental energy has been going and also on my misconception of what is important based on what my feed was showing me..so now I'm writing on this thing again.. more blogs to come? Who knows. Right now, the cookies are cool.. so I gotta go.    

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